I don't know what to think anymore... I just feel so hateful... Help me :(?

Having 3-4 friends ain't that bad. You're closer that way and it's funner to hang out without a big group of people to worry about (in my opinion) Just have self-confidence. People will like/feel more comfortable around you if you like/are comfortable with yourself and your personality. If they don't like you the way they are, then they aren't worth having as a friend.